I Will Never Give Up Biggie

Getting old scares me so bad.  Like, I can’t even think about it without getting anxiety.  Yes, I know it is a part of life and there is nothing I can do about it.   But for me, it is terrifying.  Turning 35 was a bit of a wake up call, realizing that my next milestone is 40.   Thank God that the media blows up the whole “4o is the new 30” expression because DAMN I do not want to be 40.  No offense to my older friends, of course. I do have some fabulous older peeps in my life who I love dearly.

Will I still be blaring Biggie in my car and rapping every word when I am 80?  Will I still wear my black leggings every SINGLE day?  Will I wear Granny panties? Hoop earrings? Uggs? Will I still use the word “cray?”   Yes- these thoughts cross my ludicrous mind.  Times are undoubtedly changing though. Think of those old black and white pics of your grandparents and great-grandparents. When they were in their twenties they had that “older” look to them.   You know what I am talking about.  With all of the skin care products, health-food crazes and exercise, I am confident that we will age gracefully with minimal wrinkles.

Where will we buy clothes?  It’s already starting….I feel that we are in that “in-between” stage.  Urban Outfitters has always been my #1 but I can’t rock crop tops anymore.  Gap is just blah to me.  Old Navy is affordable but really not my style.  LOVE LOVE LOVE Anthropologie but my bank account does not.  It’s tough trying to dress age appropriate, while at the same time trying to look stylish.  As I referenced in a previous blog, I definitely look to Kourtney Kardashian for fashion inspiration because she is older than me,  and if she can wear it, so can I!

It’s not just fashion, music, and physical appearance that I am focused on here. It’s my health.  Yes, I am a bit of a hypochondriac and am a WebMD FREAK.  When I go to the doctor now and see older people who are using canes, or all alone, I just can’t help but feel sad .  I think, what were they like when they were younger? We have to remember that these people were not always “old”.  Watching 3 out of 4 of my grandparents get sick and succumb to their illnesses made it real.  We are not invincible.  We all will die.  See, I get depressed when I think about aging and getting older!  But it is reality and until then I need to focus on being healthy, dressing my age (which isn’t that old!) and listening to my music as loud as I can, for as long as I can get away with it.