School Talk

 

I’m sweating.  Walking frantically through the long hallways of my old high school, trying to find my locker.  But I don’t know my locker number.  No clue. Once I finally figure out what I think could be it, I have no idea what the combination is.  Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t.  My books aren’t the correct ones for the classes on my schedule….but I can’t find my schedule.  The registrar always gives me a replacement one and I end up waking up at some point soon after. Nothing is in my backpack.  I can’t find my friends at lunch.  Nothing goes right.

This nightmare happens frequently- maybe once a month since I can remember.  It varies somewhat with minor details, but that is pretty much the gist.  The dream is disturbing.  I wake up with my heart racing and so confused.

Now that DJ is in Kindergarten, school is a major topic of conversation in our house.  I feel like I am starting from scratch.  Remembering to check his folder for homework, packing lunches, making sure I know when picture day is.  Having a kid in school is stressful!  Knowing that he has 13 years or more of it definitely gives me anxiety but I keep telling myself that he will get through it and will not actually live these “nightmares” that keep freaking me out every so often!

After looking at a few dream interpretation websites, it seems that I am not the only one in this world who periodically has these dreams.  It is quite common.  Most sites say that having this dream means that stress in present in real life.  Sounds about right.  As a mom who is VERY aware of her anxiety disorder, I do try to relax and think positive and ya know, try not to stress out.  I know that I will never rid of this trait completely, so I accept that this dream will be back again.  But, I’m hoping that one night, whether it be soon or when my kids are in high school, I remember that locker combination and make it to class and more importantly, find my friends at lunch.